Do you ever have this feeling that if you could only get through this hard thing that you're walking through right now, this one setback or season of uncertainty, that everything would be right in your life? From the moment Adam made the first swipe through my hair with the clippers that Thursday afternoon in April of 2015, I was ready to be finished with being bald. As I watched my hair fall to the floor, I couldn't wait to look at the calendar and figure out when my hair would start to ...
A Difficult Decision
Our engagement photos, taken 5 days after my diagnosis. Photo Credit: Jerina Mac Photography February 18th was the first day that I woke up knowing that I had cancer. That first morning, and many mornings after that, I opened my eyes and for a split second didn’t remember that anything about my life had changed. Then the horrible feeling would wash over me as I remembered that I had cancer. I wanted to pull the covers back up and go back to sleep, where I didn’t have to think or ...
Pried Open
Today marks 4 years. Four years that I couldn’t see even a small glimpse of on that day. Back then the road ahead looked much like my view this morning, foggy and uncertain. I don’t do uncertain well. I do predictable and planned out. I do my plans, the ones where I can see very clearly each next step. The ones where I can prepare and control outcomes. But I’m learning that my faith doesn’t have to be very deep if I can always see what’s up ahead. When I can’t see past the next day, or the ...
And Then It Happened
Four years ago today, this 11:00 appointment grabbed a hold of the cushy rug beneath my life and snatched it away. Maybe you’ve had a day like that. A day that started just like all of the ones that came before it. A day where you snoozed your alarm too many times, packed the car for the road trip, stopped for coffee on your way to work, had lunch with a friend. And then it happened. I don’t know what your “it” was. I don’t know if it was an appointment, a phone call, an accident, or ...
What Are You Waiting For?
As I backed out of my driveway on a cloudy Tuesday in November, I was filled with fear, doubt, and a tiny bit of anticipation. I was heading to the Proverbs 31 Ministries She Speaks conference, a conference for aspiring writers and speakers that had been coming up in conversations with friends and strangers for a couple of years. I had looked up information about it a few times and I thought that maybe I’d go someday. But not yet. Someday, when I was ready. Until I felt ready, I'd just read ...
A Winter of Waiting
Are you walking through a season of waiting? If so, it probably feels much like winter, where the trees are bare and everything seems dormant and maybe even buried deep beneath the ice and snow. Are you longing for a new season, for a breakthrough, for change? Maybe you are waiting for a broken marriage to be repaired, a frail body to be healed, an empty void in your life to be filled. Maybe you're yearning to meet your person and move on from your season of singleness or maybe you are waiting ...